.Tuesday, December 2, 2008 ' 7:07 PM Y
the letter just have to arrive today wen i'm out. i didnt have any chance to explain moiself and all i did was kept moi mouth shut, mind was completely blank upon stepping into home. I couldnt take it aft few rounds of endless scolding tat is wen the heated argument starts. he went to bath while i went dwn to pass MSP lappy and i jus burst out in tears. back home and round i duno wat continues and out of home i went. Sat outside stoning and it's freaking cold. Went dwn at abt 515am to collect back moi lappy and while walkin up e stairs i gt a call. Called to b back in and i jus sat at e sofa stoning. Text MSP and fell aslp on e sofa.
i knw i've those kind of freedom which not mani ppl hab.I'm alr gg 18 i knw wat i'm doing and everyone makes mistake. No one is perfect in tis selfish world. Sumtym i jus wish to shut moiself out frm e world so i wun need to go thru all this shit.I always hab moi reason for returning home late. Anyway, i didnt lyk to stay at hm either cox tis isnt a hm which mani ppl can stand. A hm which is broken. A hm which yew always hear quarrel every week for at least 2 tym or more. I realli envy ppl wit complete family.I seriously cant wait to step into working society so see even more selfish and lots more of ugly ppl out dere. To experience it moiself and i'm sure we need to go thru even more tough shit.We're living in a dog eat dog world society.
i've been feeling dwn and i haben been lyk tis for quite sumtym.
i'm lost and confuse and i will still pour out moi prob to tis special person who knws moi alittle more than others.
i've lost moi motivation in gg to sch, earning money.
i tend to lost control of moiself and cried moi ass off.
i'm having a roller coaster kind of mood lately.
i'm feel vex and stress by yet i duno wat i'm stress abt, a feeling i cant describe.
i'll spent money lyk tsunami and will b cabbing frm one place to another wen i'm dwn.
' sumwhere over the rainbow♥
